Man it is so hard to roll over and hear the baby moving and see the monitor that she is standing there waiting for me to come get her at 730am and all I want to do is shut my eyes and go back to sleep for 3 more hours ! Everyday feels like I have awakened from a hangover that never ends.
The brain is dead, emotions are sad, and I just want to feel like myself again but that is not going to happen for months!
Today I had coffee on the phone with my girlfriend in Minnesota after taking the baby to daycare. We caught up for 2 hours about life for the past month since I have fallen into chemo land.
She was supposed to come visit us for a week with her son who is my daughters friend...yes they have friends at 18 and 21 mos old! Lol
But they came down with horrible sinus and flu and couldn't come visit us before my first round of chemo.
Daily life went on today...the normal chores , dogs, cleaning, and then I went to have some rolls and rice at a Japanese restaurant by my acupuncturist. Acupuncture went well, however my mental state was sad and I kept getting chills during my session .
I noticed I am getting sores in my mouth now. Like irritation on the inside of my lips . Ugh. It's 1 thing after another seems like the trend.
I'm just brain dead and feel like I move emotionless in autopilot.
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